1st Love

For as long as I can remember, I have been inlove with theatre. I have studied, analyzed, and lived the art of theatre since I was 6. When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I always answered with a firm, "a professional actor." Due to complications from Lupus, I have to give that dream up. Ever since I realized that I had to find a new dream, I feel this disconnect from the world and everything around me. As if I'm walking this world lost. I am eager to find another calling, but I can't imagine ever being happy doing anything else besides theatre. Ive tried to fill this void in my soul with friends, and the gym, and scrapbooking, but nothing is filling it. I had my final show last Thursday and it was heartbreaking to let go of something that makes who I am. My first and true love wasn't Michael...it's Theatre. Maybe someday we'll meet again my love...thank you for everything you have given to me. I will carry you with me for the rest of my life.