Out With the Old and In With the New

Today was my last day with my current trainer. I feel bad that I was snippy and a bit bitter but I've never been very good about hiding my feelings. I am happy that he received the promotion because he deserves it but I can't help but feel like I received the short end of the stick. I got to know and learned to work with him, and I allowed myself to be vulnerable because I need to let my walls down in order for this whole training thing to work. And now the process has to start all over again. I think what bugs me the most is that I feel like I wasn't good enough to make the cut. He keeps trying to tell me that he still has my back and that it's not like he's going anywhere, but I know that it's not true. He's going to be doing manager things and I'm going to be continuing this journey with another person. I also know myself very well...to stop feeling hurt or betrayed, I delete the people out of my life who caused those feelings. I'm very good at breaking away and pretending like a friendship or any type of relation that happened never occurred. I know it's petty but it's self preservation. It's better than having my feelings hurt. I start on Tuesday with a brand new trainer and I'm really hoping this trainer will help me reach my goal so I don't have to go through the process of getting to know and adjusting to new trainers again. It is exhausting having to constantly adapt.