At a Stand Still

I think the worst thing about my life is that from time to time, it has to be put on hold. I'm ordered to rest and relax and destress, but it does get lonely sometimes. I feel bad for my mom because I know it hurts her to have to see me take a time out from life. But it's not realistic to expect life to take a pause with me. Life keeps going. People keep going, and have no choice but to leave you behind. My friends have school, fam, work, relationships to deal with, and they are all young. Their life should be about parties and blowing off steam when they're not busy, not babysitting the sick girl. I just wish with all my heart I didn't have to take a time out. I wish I could be young and having fun too. I wish my time outs in life would be less frequent. I know it's hard to be friends with me because from time to time I have to take a break. It's depressing and people don't wanna have to deal with or have no time to deal with it. I hope I won't grow old alone though. I hope there is a man out there strong enough to handle my breaks from life. If I'm lucky, maybe one strong friend would be nice too.